As you know, i have been wondering why my dearest has been different lately and has been very distant to me. Just earlier this afternoon, I found out that she was with another guy. We have talked and she told me she has done nothing with him but “hung out” She did not go home last Saturday night and only arrived at about 8:30 in the morning. I was distraught and felt like i was so betrayed when i heard one of my friends said that she liked another guy. I could not believe it. God knows what things they have done, but she tells me she is happy with him and when i told her if she was happier with me, she could not answer. All along i thought that i was the one to make her happy. Guess i was wrong, But no matter what happens tonight. I know that i will always love her even when she’s with another. My heart is forever to her. Pain is what kills people, but those who survive it await grand prizes of their hardships. Tonight maybe the night i let go of her completely. If she answers that she is happier with him. Then i will. At the end of the night.
Last night might be the worst night i had since my breakup. I have waited long for her to come to me and to see if she really did love me like she said on an online social networking sight. I have missed her so and wanted to patch things up between her and me. Cause i know that we love each other so much, Alas that does not seem to be the case. Sadness consumed me that night, as like the last few nights of lonliness i felt. But the irony of it all is that she is the only one that can make me truly happy, The person who can hurt you the most is also the person that can be your paradise. She is my weakness and strength, i am in love with her still even after everything that happened. She left me idle there for an hour and a half, for every person that enters, i wait to see if it was her so that i could go to her and hug and kiss her. I tried contacting her through the mobile phone, Called her thrice and yet she does not answer. I told her i did not want to go to her, cause i already went to where we can meet in the middle and see if she puts effort in going to me. We were supposed to meet at a concert called “dope” but instead, we ended up heading north. Its over and done and until now she had not contacted me in anyway I do not know anymore, i am lost and confused. She was my only way out until she turned against me too. I need a sign to tell me that she really does love me and still cares, and another sign to tell me that she does’nt and has moved on. Any would do, that at least my confusion is no more. So that i could also move on.
-Enchanted.
This is me playing the guitar
Someone, help me.
